Sometimes
I'm such an emo.
I'm like
"whoa everything is a shit humans are shit blablablah".
And of
course "Jesus Fucking Christ, this year sucks, the past one was so much
better."
I mean,
I've been saying that a lot for the past few years, but, how the fuck is it
possible?
If this one
is a shit, next year I'll should remember it as the shit that is has been, not
like "a year much better than this one".
I do that.
A lot. Even though I know this year is not that bad and that it could be worse,
I still think that 4 of ESO was better.
And yeah,
it was, but that's not the case.
Why does
everyone tends to idealize past times?
Like
childhood. Everyone remembers childhood like a time full of rainbow kisses and
unicorn stickers.
"Oh
man I miss my childhood when I didn't had to do homework/go to school/go to
work/pay the bills/etc. My only worry was to play and not worry at all.
It was
awesome."
Fuck no!
It was a
fucking hell.
It is the
most boring time of the life. You can't do anything. You are just something
that is around, depending 24/7 of your parents.
I mean, if
all the kids want to grow up is because of something, right?
Childhood
sucked.
Like middle
school.
I remember
that when I left middle school, everyone said to me "oh Aixa you'll see it
in a few years. You will be at high-school and thinking "oh man, I miss
middle school". You'll see how much you'll miss it in a few years."
Well bitch
it's been five fucking years and I still don't miss it.
Sure, I had
a few good moments. But no.
I don't
miss it. At all.
But a lot
of people does.
Sometimes
even me.
Well no, I
don't miss it, but sometimes I think "middle school was better, because I
didn't had all of this work".
Then I
remembered everything of middle school and I say to myself "lol nope it
was not".
Anyway.
Why does
people idealize past times so much?
They forget
about the bad things, and keep the good ones.
That's not
how it should work, because that way you'll always think that past times were
better and you'll feel like now everything is worse.
Or maybe
past times were better and I'm just an idiot who hates everything.
Who the
fuck knows.
