Crackers

A random day I went to buy crackers. Because I wanted to.

They are not even that good, but I just felt like eating crackers.


The thing is that when I found them, I saw the exactly same crackers, but one euro more expensive.


But the same ones. Same crackers, same package, same everything, but one euro more expensive.

Just because one of those crackers had "cuétara" written on the jar or however the heck that's called.

Does this actually works? I mean, if they do it, is because there is people who buys the expensive ones, even though they are the exactly same crackers.

How can people be so dumb?

I mean, I'm dumb, like the dumbest human being ever, but even I can see that they are the exactly same package of crackers with a different label.

So why does people keep buying the expensive ones?

And yeah, I know, it's just one euro, it's not a big deal, but if you start to collect one euro from every person who buys the expensive crackers instead of the other ones, it is a big deal.

And JFC, it is a big deal. It's a motherfucking euro, for fuck's sake.
It is a fucking big deal.


I mean, for the same amount of money, you can buy two jars of the cheaper crackers but only one of the expensive ones.


But if they keep making that, it's because it works, and people buys the expensive ones.

Like I said a thousand times before, humans are dumb.

No title

I'm supposed to write 6 your-says, and I've only written one, and I'm out of ideas.

And they're supposed to have a 100 words, and this one only has 30.

Jesus Christ.

What's the point? I can't write. I'm an awful writer.

It must be so boring to read everything that I write.

I'm sorry for this blog.

It is so bad, and you're supposed to read it. Or not. Who knows.
I don't even know if I should upload this to the blog.
Who knows. Who cares. Not me.


I just don't know what I can write about.


There. 100 words. Well, 105 now.

Procrastinantig

According to the Urban Dictionary, procrastination means "avoid doing something for as long as possible, sometimes not doing it at all".

There. That's what I do. That's what I live for.

I procrastinate a lot.

I spend my life procrastinating, and I'm pretty sure that that is the main cause of all my problems.

I have procrastinated with all the writings of the blog, and I'm supposed to write all of them today, because today is the deadline.

The thing is that I don't feel like writing. I'm sick, I get dizzy, I have a fever and I'm really tired, but here I am, writing all of the blog posts because I procrastinated and today is the deadline.

Existence

Sometimes I don't believe in anything.

And I don't mean it in an emo way, I mean its existence.

How do I know that everything I see its real?. How do I know that I'm not in a coma, or asleep? Or just having hallucinations?

I don't know.

Sometimes nothing seems real. And again, I don't mean it in an emo way, like "everything is so shitty and I don't like it buah buah buah", I mean that it looks fake.

Sometimes, when I'm bored at class and not paying attention (something that happens way more than it should) I start to think.

"What if actually I'm like dying on the floor, having convulsions, and I just think that I'm sitting here?. How can I know that I am sitting still, and not dancing on the tables and kicking everyone's faces while they are panicking".

Or when I talk to someone, five seconds later I'm like "what if I just made up that conversation and it never happened".

And if sometimes I wanna talk to someone about something we said another day I start to think stuff like "what if that never happened, and if I say that out loud they will think that I'm crazy?".

Well, it's not like I actually give a damn if people thinks that I'm crazy, but what if I am?

What if I am crazy, and this is all an hallucination?

Or what if I'm in a coma, and everything that's happening is just a nightmare?

Then I spent the rest of the day thinking about it and, by the end of the day nothing makes sense.

It's like when you start to repeat a word, and by the time that word starts to sound weird and stops making sense.

I think I think a bit too much.

But I have to think, right? I mean, if I didn't think, I would be a robot.

But what if I'm a robot? What if we all are robots, or just some of us, and only a few ones know it and they don't say it to us, the actual robots?

I really think a bit too much.

Idealizing past times

Sometimes I'm such an emo.

I'm like "whoa everything is a shit humans are shit blablablah".

And of course "Jesus Fucking Christ, this year sucks, the past one was so much better."

I mean, I've been saying that a lot for the past few years, but, how the fuck is it possible?

If this one is a shit, next year I'll should remember it as the shit that is has been, not like "a year much better than this one".

I do that. A lot. Even though I know this year is not that bad and that it could be worse, I still think that 4 of ESO was better.

And yeah, it was, but that's not the case.

Why does everyone tends to idealize past times?

Like childhood. Everyone remembers childhood like a time full of rainbow kisses and unicorn stickers.

"Oh man I miss my childhood when I didn't had to do homework/go to school/go to work/pay the bills/etc. My only worry was to play and not worry at all.

It was awesome."

Fuck no!

It was a fucking hell.

It is the most boring time of the life. You can't do anything. You are just something that is around, depending 24/7 of your parents.

I mean, if all the kids want to grow up is because of something, right?

Childhood sucked.

Like middle school.

I remember that when I left middle school, everyone said to me "oh Aixa you'll see it in a few years. You will be at high-school and thinking "oh man, I miss middle school". You'll see how much you'll miss it in a few years."

Well bitch it's been five fucking years and I still don't miss it.

Sure, I had a few good moments. But no.

 I don't miss it. At all.

But a lot of people does.

 Sometimes even me.

Well no, I don't miss it, but sometimes I think "middle school was better, because I didn't had all of this work".

Then I remembered everything of middle school and I say to myself "lol nope it was not".

Anyway.

Why does people idealize past times so much?

They forget about the bad things, and keep the good ones.

That's not how it should work, because that way you'll always think that past times were better and you'll feel like now everything is worse.

Or maybe past times were better and I'm just an idiot who hates everything.

Who the fuck knows.