Tired

I'm pretty sure that I've never been this tired in my entire life. It's like I haven't slept in days. I have had many sleepless nights, and I know how it feels, so I can properly say that this is even worse. I don't have the energy or the motivation to do anything. I'm pretty sure that I just keep going on because that's what I'm supposed to do.
I just want to sleep. I'm always tired. Even today, that I have slept more than 10 hours, just like yesterday.
I'm pretty sure that I can't keep up with this. At all. And I'm not even sure that I want to. What's the point? It just doesn't make much sense.

I used to worry about everything so much. I would have anxiety attacks every single day because I cared so much about everything.

And now.... It just seems impossible for me to care about anything. I just don't care.

Last year, and the one before that (and the one before that) I was obsessed with failing some subjects and I couldn't bare the thought of failing and repeating a year, but now... I just don't care. At all.
It seems so insignificant right now. Like everything.

I don't even know how I manage to get out of bed every day. Inertia, I guess. But it's  pointless. What's the point anyway?

I'm just... so tired. Things that made me anxious don't seem to matter anymore, but things that made me happy are starting to become insignificant as well.
Some people that I used to find funny annoy me so much when they talk to me, even though they don't have done or said anything wrong. I just want them to stop. I just want everything to stop.


And I think about everything I have to do and it seems that I can't take it.
So many tests, so many homework... I can't do it, I'm just so damn tired about everything. I think that even the simple thought of existing makes me tired.
I just procrastinate everything because I don't want to face it. I hate everything. No. I don't hate it. But I don't have the energy and I don't feel like it. It doesn't seem to matter anymore. Even though I know it does. At least, it is supposed to.



God, I'm so annoying. I don't even know why I wrote this. I guess I'm out of ideas and this is the first thought that crossed my mind. I'm sorry about this. Even tough it's just a post and it doesn't even matter